Basab wrote:Sudarshang,
I am neither walking the path of Bhakti, nor the path of Jnana. Spirituality is a subject of interest to me. I read books on it, but that's where it ends. When it comes to the spirituality I follow in life, I don't know in which category it falls or whether it can be called spirituality at all. I believe in formless God, but I talk to Him, sometimes, as in, sharing my problems with him, when I am in a very senti mood. So it is a mix of Bhakti and Jnana as you can see.

I don't believe in praying to God for something because I know if and when He thinks necessary, He will provide help, in which He never fails. I also believe that destiny is predestined, that is, whatever is destined, will happen, and no one can stop that. This strong belief about destiny is the mantra of my life. This is what my life revolves around. Some may say that excess belief in destiny may make a person a fatalist. I don't believe in that, one bit. Lord Kirshna says to Arjuna that believe this that you make your destiny, but know this to be the truth that everything is predestined. I feel that even the person who believes in destiny can't surrender himself to it, completely. It is not possible. I have seen that in my own life, time and again. There have come situations in my life when my mom has told me to try to accept my fate, but I have said, I can't sit back and suffer as it was too much to bear and I tried my best to get out of the difficulty. I will just give a small incident from my life, which shows why we can't surrender ourselves to destiny, even if we believe that everything is predestined:
One day when I went to bed at night, I felt a terrible pain in my stomach, and it kept going on non-stop, making me miserable. My mind in a sarcastic mood told me "Don't you believe in surrendering to destiny?" I thought, that if I was to follow what I believe in, I should not think of taking any medicine but quietly suffer my destiny. I tried that for a few more seconds and then I thought to myself, what a fool I am, I am foolishly suffering when there is a medicine for that and I just have to get out of the bed and have it. I got out of bed and had a couple of antacid pills, got relief in a few minutes, and thought to myself, I don't follow what I believe in, fully because when the suffering became too much for me to bear, I took the route of free will.
Now, belief in destiny helps in many ways. It helps you accept all your miseries, which you would not be able to accept if you think of that from a logical perspective. Sometimes we wonder why we suffer, why we have to face humiliation, when we have not done anything wrong, when we have been a good person all through, and then, just the one magic word, 'destiny' makes us accept it, wonderfully, that which we can't accept, otherwise. I have seen people around me, who doesn't stop crying over something lost or doesn't stop brooding over some failure in life because they want the answer to the big question: why did it happen to them? They will cry and cry and cry over it, but they will find it difficult to accept it because they don't believe in destiny. If you believe in destiny, you will not ask why because you have the answer to that why: it is destiny. So belief in everything to be predestined is the best course, I believe.
Sudarshang wrote:Now you are talking the langauge of Bhakti Yoga.