Dev,
Depends whether even if I get success, I will turn spiritual. Maya is so intoxicating that it is difficult to come out of its trap. If I get some success, I may want more of it, and this may go on, not making me spiritual, ever.
About monks you are right, that they have got their desires fulfilled in previous lifetimes, so they don't get attarcted to the world of maya from the beginning of their life. Yes, past life karma can only explain the present birth problems, and that is what we call destiny.
Yes, dreaming about worldly enjoyment is definitely maya, and I don't feel guilty. one bit, to call myself materialistic. Being materialistic is not a sin after all.
Dev wrote:May be if in few years u achieve all in materialistic way and then find it to be maya after enjoyment, u would then become spiritual.
Some special souls who from the very beginning had vairagya and became a monk are exceptions who have it carried over from previous janmas. So here is the link, one cannot think of this janma in isolation, if they do so, they can never be happy and can never explain things.
Still, after saying all this, I felt that if u have not had enjoyment and had suffering, when the enjoyment itself is a maya, the enjoyment that u did not have, thinking about it and saying that u want to enjoy, becomes another maya. Once of course u experience that, u will feel having achieved something materialistically.
I know that everyone will die one day, but should we cry over that and spoil the days that we are going to live?
You, your dear ones, and all of us in the forum, our relatives, friends, enemies will all die one day and that is reality.
Dev
I don't have any desire for deer. 
