R V RAMANAN wrote:Dear Indyan
The lord of 5th, yoga karaka, saturn afflicted by being placed in the badhaka sthana along with 6th lord jupiter and rahu aspected by ketu and from the moon sign, lord of 5th being debilitated has made you disbelieve god.
Pls. understand that this earth is presently nineteen billion years old (proved by the carbon dating of the fossils) is still running despite the fact that we have managed to literally rape it because of the supreme capacity of the great god. We may not know his workings but from my experience I can vouch that it is just limitless compassion.
Pls. change your attitude and persist with worship shunning all obstacles both internal and external enroute. You will see an ocean of difference outside you, provided you allow a very little transformation inside.
The trick is to be aware of yourself within and without and throughout.
all the best
regards
ramanan
Once again thank for your great input in my question. But this is really hard for me to believe again on GOD who never gave me any fruitful result after worshiping them UNCONDITIONALLY.
I was very much into worship and i used to worship them like my parents. But after sometimes when i realized that they are just stones nothing else i quit to worship them. On my bad times my parents my siblings cared for me not that GOD. I know there is something which is governing the whole universe thats why i told that i respect and follow the laws of universe but i dont have a single percent love for GOD.
I really love to visit temple and the places where God is worshiped but from my heart i dont like to worship them at all. I dont whether i am doing any sin or not but i dont believe in doing such things which my heart dont allow. If you love something then love him dont show that you love them else you are breaking someone trust. and i believe in above statement.
I had my business my home everything which a man want i got since my birth, but all of sudden everthing went off. My parents are so much devoted to god that they still pray them but i cant. If I treated them like parents then how come they left me in bad time? why dont they come to save me? why i get that much problem in life? I have lots questions which i wanna ask to GOD.
I really want him to come down for me and answer my question. According to epics every person is god's child then how come a parent want there child to be in bad times. I never understand it. Some granth told that it is MOH and MAYA...
well i dont want to say anything against them coz i respect them.I dont love them but i love dont hate them.
I always give donations to orphans or some needy persons. I try to feed the beggars coz i find satisfaction when i do such things but i never find satisfaction while worshiping god.
SORRY guru ji, I know this forum have hardcore believer of god but the problems which i faced during last 17 years made me stubborn. Still i am kind hearted and want every people to be happy, if anything can be done from me to make them i never set back for giving them my hands.
I had seen the worst time of my life where i had to murder some criminals to save my family life.
AFAIK ketu in 5th make a person spiritual and give him foresight power (psychic/medium) which i feel sometimes.
I request you to please throw some light and give me your guidance to overcome from my problem. If worship is the only way then guru ji how can i worship them whom i dont love (I dont hate them).
Respect and regards