Worried about my future and my son's future.

[sandhya@1962]

Hi!

I am a 50-year-old Indian woman. I lost my husband in August of 2017. His death was very sudden and shocking. Got married in Dec 1994; only later on, I came to know that there was no horoscope compatibility as we frequently had fights and cold wars. I have a son age 19 years. Over the years, I had started getting attached to him despite all the differences and now he is gone. I don't have a job. Not much in the form of liquid cash. I need to take care of my son and myself. It is more than 6 months, but still I am breaking down frequently and constantly thinking why this happened. I tried mailing to astrologers on Youtube for a paid reading but their charges are not affordable for me. I am worried about my son's future and my future, getting a job, finance. Want to pursue spirituality but unable to involve completely. Kindly help me. My birth details are:
DOB: 15/11/1967
Time Of Birth: 13:05
Place of Birth: Secunderabad.