Depression & Addiction

[angel121]

Hi Everyone

I've struggled with depression all my life. I was diagnosed officially when I was 16, but it started way earlier in life. It never really goes away, it comes and goes in the form of high and low phases. I've learned to deal with it. I have had a low phase lately. It started around Aug / Sept last year. I had it under control. It has gotten progressively worse at an accelerated pace. I have no peace. I have developed a an addiction to prescription medication. It has taken me a while to admit to myself that it's an addiction. I have started going to different doctors and pharmacies specifically, just to get more prescriptions and meds. I can't cope without them, but I'm barely coping with them. It's my escape, too drug myself and sleep. I do the absolute bare minimum and drug myself and sleep every opportunity I get. Some days, I do it all day. My life is falling apart. There is no harmony at my home. I have no support structure. I just want peace and have no idea how to get it. I have never felt suicidal since my late teens, but I feel that way again. Alot of issues from my childhood that I thought I had made peace with, have come back to haunt me as well. I have never had such a low phase in my life in over 12 years. I've tried hard to keep my condition to myself, but now I'm having panic attacks in public as well. I feel like I've lost all motivation and control. Any insight would be most appreciated.

25/09/1989
Durban, KwaZulu-Natal, South Africa
12.48pm (noon)

(Thank you)

[astrolover2017]

25/09/1989
Durban, KwaZulu-Natal, South Africa
12.48pm (noon)

Your lagna is Sagitarius, rasi is also same. You are going through janma sani period which will mentally torture you till 2020, when sade sati is done fully you will be fully settled in life with all blessings. Sun and Mercury are in own house, venus in own house.

Your moon is in lagna with retrograde sani which is creating havoc on the mind. But Jup is aspecting your lagna and moon which will somehow give you strength to go on. So you will come out of it. You are running bad dasa from birth.

Since your 6th lord is running the dasa now and he is strong the negative aspects of the house is happening (debts, diseases, disputes, distress). Your 11th house and 10th house lords are strong. so focus on a good job and keep yourself busy. You have good fortunes from job.

Praying to Lord Shiva and volunteering for helpless people can benefit your life.Listening to Shiva mantra in youtube can get you out of the rut.

Since your lagna lord has gone to 7th house, relationships can give you happiness so focus on finding a good person. Enjoy your life and work on yourself. Studying and improving skills and focusing on career will really help in all ways.

goodluck


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[angel121]

Hi Astrolover

Thank you for your response.

Just one query I'm actually cancer rashi and capricorn lagna...

[Suresh_Chauhan]

Hi Astrolover

Thank you for your response.

Just one query I'm actually cancer rashi and capricorn lagna...

Correct. Makara (Capricorn) ascendant and Karaka (Cancer) rashi with moon in it. Astrolover is using some other system and getting mixed up results most of the time.

Rahu-Ketu on 1-7 axis. Lagna lord Saturn has gone to 12th house, and is under direct aspect from 12th lord Jupiter, who is a rank malefic for this Capricorn. Saturn is also getting aspect from Mars in 9th and in turn aspects Mars with 10th dristi.

This assault on lagnesha, 8th lord Sun going to 9th house and rahu-ketu's influence is the cause of most of the major problems, along with the fact that Moon is in the grip of Ketu and aspected by Rahu. Venus is in own house libra in Kendra causing a great Malavya yoga, could lead to wealth thru trading or sales of luxury goods, cosmetic and beauty items, and other Venus-related products. Venus, Saturn and the 2nd house get aspects from Jupiter which, because it is malefic here, it may tarnish overall results.

[joyd]

Dear ANGEL-

Any kind of addiction purely and primarily linked with 3-6-12th houses and its lords.The second rank goes to venus-saturn-Mars-nodes-moon relation in any manner.your 3rd lord jupiter placed in 6th house in rahu's star.such jupiter aspecting his 12th house and saturn.saturn in venus star.venus is in jupiter's star.Rahu in mars star gives chronic type addiction with medicins.

joyd.

[astrolover2017]

Sorry @angel121
I think I input wrong time. I see you are makara lagna and kataka rasi.
Moon is under clutches of ragu ketu which can cloud it.

[angel121]

Thanks all for the assistance

[angel121]

@Astrolover, I am actually quite involved in charity. I spend most of my free time at an ngo that soaks with sick kids. I'm a soft person and tend to help others, even if they don't deserve it. I believe that our purpose in life is to have a positive impact upon the lives around us.

This phase is depression is difficult. I have learned to manage it over the years, but I don't have a grip on it anymore. Some days, like today, I'm average. Some days I don't know what comes over me, I'm in so much of emotional pain I don't know why. I can't cope without drugging myself. I cry for days but I'm not sure why. I tried to overdose myself a few nights ago. I haven't been suicidal in over a decade and now I am, I'm not even sure why. I have been without a vehicle for about six weeks, I'm sure that if I had my car with me, I would have driven off a cliff by now. I have absolutely no appetite, and I love food in general normally lol. I really don't know what's wrong with me. My BF(not hindu ), is convinced I'm possessed. All my medical tests come back clear as well.