Asc Lord exalted in 9th but retrograde

[vaglram]

Namaste. I am seeking a little help from gurus here to understand the spiritual side of my chart.

The astro software that produced by jataka says, I have
kalpadruma/parijata yoga based on sat and ve.
raja/Lakshmi yoga based on sat and ve.
Parivraja/Pravrajya (Moon in Saturn's drekkana, aspected in rasi by Saturn and Mars).

Lagna lord, Saturn is in Libra exalted (9th house). Venus, yogakaraka (aquarian asc) is in Lagna (parivarthana yoga).

However, an astrologer on this forum was kind enough to analyse me chart and tell me Saturn, my lagna lord, though exalted is retrograde. Saturn istaphala is 46.68. How does a retrograde exalted lagna lord in Dharma house impact my spiritual part. If it reflects the sins from past lives, is there any mantra that should be chanted for purification?

Would my lagna lord still be deemed strong? I have mars (AK), sun, moon (waning) and venus in 1st house.

I am trying to be a spiritualistic person with good devotion to God. I am empathetic by nature and am trying to give up on my anger, greed and superior feelings. Superior (though harmless in most part) seems the difficult to give up.

Female, 13-2-1983, 8:10am, kanchipuram.

Sorry for my crazy questions and am grateful for your responses.

[karthik1984]

I think you have lot of interest in occult sciences rather than religious activities. Is it true ?? you have lot of interest to find the hidden things of life ???
From 2020 , your Saturn Maha Dasha starts and it will make you more interested in occult studies.

[Sree.sree]

-For Istadevata or Upasana have to check 5th H D1 chart first.
Ur 5th H with Rah so adhidevata for that planet "Durga"

-Rah at Gemini sign..So getting Merc characterstics may be causative for U r doing poojas to Vishnu avataaras...like Raama,krsna..etc{as per Ur mention data at past}

-for Deep spiritualily go for D20 chart[ Vimsahamsa]reading

[vaglram]

[quote="karthik1984"] I think you have lot of interest in occult sciences rather than religious activities. Is it true ?? you have lot of interest to find the hidden things of life ???
From 2020 , your Saturn Maha Dasha starts and it will make you more interested in occult studies.[/quote]

Perfect. Even as a teen, I always had belief in jeevatma/paramatma and we are being a tenant here. Every pleasure here except bhakti being maya. I have strong beliefs about we don't own anything here and the only thing that could remain with us are our deeds and bhakti. Both my paternal and maternal grandfathers were priests in vaishnava temple. Under their guidance, it was natural for me to get associate my mind with Lord Vishnu. My maternal grandmother is an ardent devotee of Ram. She teaches me a lot about spirituality and we discuss a lot about maya, poorva punya and karma. Though I never got to meet my paternal grandmother, she left this world on a vaikunda ekadasi and that had a great influence on me.

I have a huge interest in reading puranas and ethihasams. And, it has definitely grown in the recent times. Even before I knew anything about jathakam or astrology, I always thought the life of a thapasvi living in a ashramam in a peaceful surrounding is far more superior to that of an emperor ruling the world. Thapsvi living in ashramams are always fortunate to have perfect peace of mind, conquer their senses, and their spiritualism eventually leads to moksha with Lord.

In the recent times it grown so much. I am struggling to find a balance between real world and my mystic world. I always wonder where does it lead me to? I am hoping to find a balance while sustaining my devotion.

Gemini is my lagna for D-9 and D-20 but Mercury (lord of 5/8) is in 12th in Rasi. AK is in Ascendant in all charts and Ketu joins AK in navamsa lagna. Is that good/bad?

As per D-20, Mantra recitation & bhakti (9th house) - Aquarius, Adoration of deity (5th house) - Libra, Meditation (12th house) - Taurus. Jupiter in 4th and ragu/ketu in 8th. Mercury in 2nd (paka lagna). 9th from it is pisces (Jupiter) and my Vedic philosophy (dharma of intelligence) seems to be Vedanta

7th from AK (heart of spiritualist) has Sun-moon. That again seems to talk about Jnana-yoga/bhakti-yoga. Both seem to be Vedanta with bhakti but in reality I kind of feel overwhelmed (recent times) with my Vedanta philosophy and I seem to be searching for answers in mystic world. I seem to be totally lost in it and that made me give up my anger/greed/superiority.

My husband is happy that I gave up those but wonders what made me to. In real life, am very good at reading between lines, interested in psycology and reading ones body language.

Thanks for reading any advice on how to shape my thoughts would be appreciated.

[vaglram]

Since my previous reply reflects a confused mindstate, I thought I would write an update. (bringing something into words intensifies the thought process, so).

After doing an honest self analysis, I realized all my confusions were because of my expectations for credit/acknowledgement etc. If there is a True love for Him, I shouldn't be seeking any recognition or credit or even acknowledgement.

Interestingly, my PAV of Saturn in D20 as Asc - that is the foundation of all my confusions. All I need to do is be dedicated to Him and not expect anything in return, including moksha - true love doesn't expect anything.

Whereever I am, whatever the loka be, and whatever janma/state it be, all I need is a heart that is truly dedicated to him.

Whereever Rama is, that would become Ayodhya for Seetha. If I could possess a heart with true love for Him, that would be my Vaikuntha - that's the only thing I need - whereever I am, whatever the loka be, and whatever janma/state it be.

My mind and heart are at peace now since I realized loving Him is my duty/way of life (IMO), its not a thing to take pride in, and any true love wouldn't seek any credit in ANY form.

I have a learned a lot from the spiritual discussions on this forum and thank all the learned members for sharing your knowledge.

Om Namo Narayana, Sriramajayam.......

[vaglram]

Could someone tell me what nullifies the Pravrajya yogas or Mars-moon-sun-venus in lagna? It is for my interest in learning astrology. Is it rahu in 5th or waning moon or lagna at ~27deg? Would a waning moon weaken all my yogas?

I definitely don't aspire to be a sanyasi other being a true devotee.

[sayan.dg]

you wont become sanyasin till atleast 2026...... and mostly not even then but a highly spiritual person.

The main topic: malefics in a trine are not good.But for you it will give again spirituality being connected to 9 12 and lagna

[vaglram]

Thanks, I heard abt it and read similar ones on net, so was interested to know (I have a passion for "why") though I know I am far away from such a maturity. It's with Him.

Thanks again ji.

[sayan.dg]

I have sent you an email from here.