thanks for replying astro123 ji,
Kaalika,thanks for sharing..
to be honest I am not angry but yes highly frustrated from life...sometimes I feel,I am just a bystander and life is just passing me by and i cant do anything...been through some great love affairs but they never reached marriage,then arrange marriage alliances also broke(though m not at all sad coz i was not compatible with them) but it has just left me frustrated...98% of my friends and cousins are married with kids and I am 30
it has brought undue stress to my parents as well...there are still 4 years to go for Ketu Mahadasha,I wonder what I would be left with when I turn 34
then there is another thing...I been consulting astrology/astros since last almost 2 years now and I dont know if my chart is so confusing or what,that i been getting so many different answers/predictions...some said I will marry in 2009,that dint happen,some said in 2010(alliance happened but i broke off),some said in 2011 I will marry,that dint happened(alliance happened but i broke off),now some say I will marry in next 2 months,then some say in 2012,some in 2013 and some also say after ketu dasha in 2016...this just cripples my mind so much coz I think that even if some alliance happens,it will again break or even if marriage happens,it will break...I mean its a normal human tendency to think like that when you get so many different predictions...it scares me to hell as we all know how bad separations can be legally I mean...
the other thing is that being 30,one cant even wait till 34 to not to do anything and sit idle...I mean you simply cannot stop the efforts to find a match as you are 30,whether it materialises or not,thats a separate thing...the overall atmosphere at home too becomes dull
till now its been such a frustrating phase these 3 years,it leaves you damn short tempered
but what can a human do? afterall its a payback time coz of bad karma