Respected Sir
"I dont say by doing the seva to almighty, u become lazy. Do your duty. It is prudent to keep apart little time for daiva chintana, when u work hard to achieve success in life."
Sir, I have always done my duty with full respect to each subject and each person. Regarding daiva chaitayna, what should I say sir? Sir, I have been born and brought up by them and everything for me is God just because from my childhood, I have not even got my mother's love like when a child should enjoy a mother's love and care. I only know how much I have teared my eyes and cried from heart without seeing my mother for 7 or 8 years, again I think shani acted there, in fact, it was just beginning of first ever sade sati just a year after I was born. I have been brought up by my grandpa and grandma, though i have no interest to be living with them, but then since I was a child I had no other go that they brought me up, but then God did it for some other reason I think now just because my grandfather was a great scholar in sanskrit and in fact a pandit, who in fact, injected in me good culture and teached me stotras, vedas at a young age along with schooling. He never even allowed me to play after my school time. Though, it tasted bitter and hard at that time, I believe how much he has injected into me for my real growth as I think this was all god's play. But having said that, seperation from my mother who gave physical birth to me is really really painful without even seeing her for such long years because for me, she is like my own divine mother. Devi and my mother who gave me physical birth are not different to me.
I have been purely born, brought up, and cared by almighty till date. Even to the extent that, the job by which I am doing now is given to me in prathyaksha by Ma Bhagavathi, I mean she helped me in getting the same, so that I can remain near her always by doing pujas, that's all what I am instructed and I am doing as a slave as per her instruction sir. I do not know nothing more than that. I am not at all eligible like what you are thinking. She has come out from inside of me and I can see her in chaitanya form spreaded all over her glowing all over the room from where I am writing this now. I do not know nothing more truly. Sir, the whole life of me is taken cared for by my true mother, Ma Bhagwathi. She has in fact kept one chudalai Kali for my protection against ghosts because all around there are several spirits vying to attack me always, but this chudalai kali keeps protection all night when these spirits are up. I have several instances to quote every now and then, but then the spaces would not be adequate. I would have been died earlier itself...it is just because of her, I am alive now. But then, she is not bhagwathi or parvathi for me, she is in my heart my own mother who has not given me physical birth that's all, and our relationship as a mother and child started 140 years back along with Lord shiva as father when I started to do worship them in a temple as a priest, that's all I know. the present trend of the setting is just a continuation from previous birth, a perfect maya play played by her. Sir, if you look at my D-60 this is pretty clear, lagna lord and fourth lord Jupiter retro in Aries along with Sun exalted, mars, and Mercury in 5th house in aries. In 8th house is kethu, and 8th lord Moon in 7th in gemini is aspecting lagna.
Sir, I am sleeping very near to where she is residing in my pooja room, because in pooja room, my mother is always there and since I am afraid of these ghosts, I on many days is sleeping in her feets and in and around her.
After all sir, we do not have any choice to accept other than what one has- "karma phala", isn't sir? So, let me them play their game sir. Everything is charted out by them, have we a choice of our own sir?
"There is a saying in kannada ---Dont ever search for Nadi(river) moola (Origin), Rishi moola , Guru moola. Searh for --Who am I. Is there any sambanda towords to our parents , ancestors."
Sir, meanwhile, I have been searching for my "real I" for quite a long time. In fact, till date, other than some vibrations I getting, I have felt nothing much. Yes, on one day, I felt vibrations coming out of my hand on to the photo of mother, but the "real I" has not swallowed me yet. I am waiting for that occasion really, but do not know what is ahead for or what is decided by them. Sir, I do definitely know for certain, there are quite a few things going on, but I am not aware of what is what and which is which truly sir.
Sir, there is always sambandha towards parents and ancestors till time one becomes "real I" and also all forms of God till time becomes "real I" sir. I am not yet "real I." If one becomes "real I" then it is altogether a different story from that time or point onwards sir. Then, one can say there is no sambanda to parents or ancestors.
It is like saying upon waking up, you are visualizing the whole world with your naked eyes, can you say there is no world before you or can you say you are not able to see anything sir? Even if you are saying "I am not able to see anything" the other person is saying "I am able to see everything when sun dawns"
Though Lalitha Saharasanama says "Midyha Jagath Adishtanaye Namah" Though the truth is that everything is Midhya, how can one say authentically unless one experiences the real I? So, in the same way parents, forms of god, and ancestors are true till time one becomes real I. Now, I am not yet real I sir, so I have no answer for the same sir.
Sir, everything is played by her..I am a mere instrument, so do not raise me to heights as I am not even an ant. I reiterate, It is all her and father's-shiva's play.
"A thing was with some one, yesterday, it is with me today, it may be with other tomorrow. Who knows? who knows where and what the RUNA is?."
Sir, you are truly great. Yes, I fully understood what I am saying, but due to this Mohini when it gets into my body, sometimes again it creates all things of nasty including ego rising up high, so I forgot for sometime about this RUNA factor and I feel being let down as to why I am suffering like this etc. Anyways, thanks a lot for once again opening my eyes sir.
"We are like a Trana (grass) in front of Sri Ramakrishna Paramahamsa, Sri Shankaracharya, Sri Gurunanak, Sri Machendranath, and Christ. Am I true Narayanji?.
Sir, you are absolutely correct. I am not even a grass, but an ounce of water in the sea, that too created by almighty. Yes, Ramakrishna Paramahamasa and swami vivekananda, and sri shankaracharyas are high souls who have attained godly states.
"Dear Narayanji, as i told u earlier i am unfit to give the convincing answer U being a well learned man, still u wanted to ask the answers from me?. I can understand at what stage u reached. Still u wanted the answer from an unqualified person?. U are asking with a wrong person , I am only a beginer, i have lot to learn.
I may be unclear in my assertion. there may be lot of gramatical mistakes and constructiuon of sentences. Kindly bear with me"
Sir, you are simply a great person of the highest order as to what I understand correctly. Sir, I am not an astrologer neither a learned one, but sir you simply belong to the greatest persons I have ever seen till date. So, sir please kindly go on to tell further. Meanwhile, please kindly stop appreciating me sir as I am nothing, but a big beggar in the street asking for food, jnana biksha and crying and yelling before her and lord shiva for their karunya as parents. So sir, I am also learning always.
"Sir, I cant simply understand what you meant by unqualified person sir"?
If your goodself is saying yourselves "unqualified", then what should others be? Please kindly do not degrade yourself because I know sir how well qualified and how godly person you are. In fact, I doubt whether you have janana drishti as well, to know things beyond and further? I might say one with true janana and qualities of an astrologer, "Ooha-Poha Padu Sresataha."
Please help me out to say whether I will have realization in this life and the life from here on in for me.
Regards
Narayanan
