Currently in Rahu MD Rahu AD - Depression and suicidal thoughts

[parthanprabha]

D.O.B: 21.04.85 5.08pm chennai. 32 years old divorcee female living with parents in Chennai and unemployed for past one year due to bad anemic and other bad health issues(varicose veins developing in left calf and ankles hence pain in legs always, bleeding gums in spite of good treatment and twice brushing, severe hair fall and depression with hypersexuality sometimes).

Could someone let me know why this sudden change since the time rahu dasa begun and I am unable to recover at all. My mars dasa was the worst but I had physical and mental strength to face all roller coaster type events like sudden loss/pain and dynamic events. Now i feel i am drained out completely and just wanna end this life.

I know that Rahu Sun and Moon in 8th house Aries for Virgo lagna is bad. Mars in 9th house Taurus did enough damage already. Venus exalted and retrograde in 7th house Pisces would not fetch big good things? Mercury debilitated is in the same house. Jupiter too debilitated in 5th house Capricorn is another drawback i believe. Ketu and Saturn combination in Libra 2nd house as per vakya panjang the old system but new online system shows ketu in 2nd house Libra and Saturn in 3rd house which is confusing to me.

This is a very very rough details i gathered out of obsession to know what exactly is wrong in my horoscope. I just want to know if anything at all good in my horoscope and what will be the thing for which I should hold on and continue to live.

I have no social life and in very bad terms with parents and relatives. I am visiting temples sometimes and i am dry fasting every ekadashi to avoid negative thoughts. But the health issue is making me demotivated to follow spiritual guidance too for a transformation. I am dead inside out and all i do is be in room doing nothing day in and day out. I am feeling lost and stuck like this, don't know what next in life. Is this just a phase or should I move out and live alone to see how my health and life changes by any chance but don't know if i could do this too. Please guide me.

[astrolover2017]

D.O.B: 21.04.85 5.08pm chennai.

Raghu Raghu 03 - 03 - 2017 16 - 11 - 2019
Raghu Jupiter 16 - 11 - 2019 09 - 04 - 2022
Raghu Saturn 09 - 04 - 2022 16 - 02 - 2025
Raghu Mercury 16 - 02 - 2025 03 - 09 - 2027
Raghu Kethu 03 - 09 - 2027 22 - 09 - 2028
Raghu Venus 22 - 09 - 2028 22 - 09 - 2031
Raghu Sun 22 - 09 - 2031 16 - 08 - 2032
Raghu Moon 16 - 08 - 2032 16 - 02 - 2034
Raghu Mars 16 - 02 - 2034 03 - 03 - 2035


Lagna is Kanni, rasi is Mesha. You just came out of Ashatama sani period so past 2 years must have been very stressful. Jup is debilitated in rasi but exalted in navamsa so its not powerless totally. mercury and venus in neecha banga. sun is exalted. ragu and ketu with sun moon can give grahana dosha where you have to fight for everything you need in life. nothing will come easily. Its all past karma.

ragu-ketu in 2-8 axis is bad for marriage, from moon lagna ragu-ketu is in 1-7 zxis. jup in 5th house, venus in 7th house are karako bhava nasthi which is bad for marriage and child birth. Late marriage after 30 must have been ok.

Lagna lord seeing lagna will strengthen you so you will come out of everything thats stressing you and get what you want surely. Join the singles meetup groups and be independent financially, emotionally, physically. travel to new places and learn a new hobby. go to classes or study higher and try abroad jobs and appreciate life. Divorce is not a stop sign, it means God is giving you another chance to create a life you want with more maturity and wisdom.

Pray to Lord Shiva each monday and volunteer for poor people to get blessings

goodluck.