Let me report litany of my problems.
saturn in 9th bhava and fifth house,jupiter in 8th bhava and 4th house,moon in twelfth bhava and 8th house,sun and rahu in 6 th house and 10 bhava,ketu in 12th house and 4 th bhava as per lagna kundali.I do not understand astrology.
1)Extreme anxiety,depression from 1994 onwards.I have been on medicines from year 2002 onwards and suffered myriad health issues.In sade sati,these problems have gone from bad to worse and i stopped taking medicines.I was suicidal from year 2000 to 2017.
2)Stress induced Tuberculosis .Took 1 year to cure.
3)Operation for fistula(2 months)
4)Operation for abscess(3 months)
5)stomach problems from 2008 to 2017.
6)Recurring Yeast infection(I am a man but got it because overuse of antibiotics)
7)Serious case of boils in groin region(Took 6 months to cure.)
Urine infection(extremely serious and took 4 months to recover)
9)Reactions and allergies to continuous use of antibiotics I have been given from last 9 years-continuing
1) lost court case,got divorced and lost money.didn't marry next time.I have no belief in marriage and courts
negligible to none.
working at same position from last 17 years.No promotion for next 10 years and i don't have have wish to do that either.
too many to recount here.
Mental intellectual abilities?
Are you joking? I lost will to live.What's use of intellectual abilities now?
What did i learn?
1) Never trust women and courts.I never disrespected or tortured women before sade sati.In fact,i was heavily medicated from 2002 to 2008 so my mind was not working properly.I stayed away from women ,never had affairs and believed in institution of marriage.
By god,i will never never never help any women in my entire life,never save women's life or respect them.
If saturn wants to teach me lesson to respect women,he should have given me pleasant experiences.Sorry god,you failed.
2)There is no one close to you except yourself.No friends or family.Your sorrows are your own.There are no friends in adulthood.Friends exist only for benefits.
3) God definitely exists and i completed many sadhanas.They gave expected results.But god don't have power to alter your destiny or life.God's power is worthless against money-laws-public opinion.God's power is useless against your kundali-planetary positions-sade sati and whatever is written in your naseeb.
That's why many saints tell us " never expect anything from god,just do your sadhana ".
What to expect in future?
Frankly,I don't exactly care what 3rd stage will bring now.I am past caring stage.I stay all alone,rarely talk with anyone,have never joined any social gathering(like marriage ceremony or parties) from last 17 years,never had any relationship with women,don't have children and don't have any great hobbies or interests.
My life at this point is almost finished because the real life from age 15 to 40 was spent in extreme depression-anxiety and nervous breakdowns and health problems.Even if good days come after 2020,i no longer wait for them.
The maximum punishment god can give a human is to make him ghost after death. WIth so many unfulfilled desires and continuous defeats,i will never die happily and satisfied.
I hope my post helps few people.