Astrosonu,
I am not a fatalist, and I am that. I am indifferent about God, but I talk to Him too. I am lazy, but I can be active if the need be. I know it is confusing but that is how it is like. 2 contradictory thoughts run in my mind all the time. One is to look at life logic-wise, and the other to look at life destiny-wise. It has always been like this for me from the very beginning.
I would like to ask you something: do you think me an illiterate person with no concept of doctors and medicines because otherwise I don’t really understand why you people started giving advice to me when I am with this problem for 13 years now? The remedies that you have talked about have been tried by me in the first few years itself, and I was expecting you all to understand that much and not give those same advices. But it seemed to me like you all thought that this guy, that is me, is such a dumb-rose that he has not even gone to a doctor even once and has not tried any of the alternative therapies even once, so now that you guys have told me about it for the first time, I will do some treatment, after sitting idle and not going to any doctor for 13 years, and get okay. That’s the impression I got, which made me irritated.
Now coming to astrological remedies, well, I don’t have any belief in them. I will better suffer all my life, with the problem I have, than go for astrological remedies. I am not at all a believer of them. I am not interested in doing any mantra remedies or praying to God. One of my friends come to my house, once every month and tells me that if I pray to God, He will surely help me. And I tell him that I don’t want any help from God. I am happy without His help. That doesn’t mean I disrespect Him, but this that I don’t need His help. I am happy without that. I talk to Him sometimes, and I share my problems with Him, but then, I never ask Him to help me. And He knows best why I don’t ask for His help—as He knows everything.
About free will, I don’t believe in it. I believe in working hard but not in free will. Free will is always about fighting with destiny, and I don’t believe in that. I believe when the time comes for you to work, you can’t sit back and relax. I don’t know why, though I have said this again and again, people still don’t understand me. I don’t feel like writing here anymore because I think it a waste of time trying to make people understand what I mean, which I don’t find necessary at all. See, if a person is running the period of exalted 3rd lord, will you be able to make the person sit and rest and do nothing? You won’t be able to do that because destiny will never let the person sit back and relax in that period. If a person is running the period of 10th lord exalted and unafflicted and well placed, will you be able to keep the person from working hard and making a good career? You won’t be able to because destiny will make the person work and achieve success. And such is the ingratitude of the person if he doesn’t believe in destiny and astrology that he will say it is him who is putting his effort and getting success when there are thousands of people, who put more effort than him and fail big time because they have a heavily afflicted 10th house or a bad birth chart over all. But now, even though I believe in that, I don’t lead my life keeping that in my mind. I lead my life logically and don’t let the planets and their influence come to my mind a single time. That’s why I don’t even see my birth chart and don’t even try to remember, which planetary period I am running or which planet is placed where in my chart. I am trying to forget my chart completely. I have always led my life with practical thinking, and I am going to do that always. As Krishna had said to Arjuna in Gita (as per an article I had read) that do your work with this belief that you are the doer, but know this to be the truth that everything is happening as it was destined.
About surrendering, don’t look at it in a spiritual perspective, but in a logical perspective. A crippled person, who has been told by a doctor that he can never walk, will stop trying to walk, but can't be called a fatalist. Surrendering to a problem, which doesn't have a cure, doesn't make a person a fatalist and doesn't mean he is surrendering to destiny. Yes, I say I have surrendered to destiny, but I don’t mean it in that way. I have surrendered to the problem I have because there is no hope for it to get cured.
Why don’t you understand that I have given up trying because all the doctors I have been to, have not been able to show me a solution to the problem! I have tried for 8 years, man—8 years!! Now, let me live in peace, please! I have never asked anyone for advice, so why are you all bothering me again and again with you views!
I am not a kid! I am a 30 year old guy, and I know what is right, and what is wrong for me. When I am sitting at home, it means, all the efforts have failed. And I am not that kind of a person, who will keep on trying to find a solution to a problem, which has no solution, unless there is a miracle, and I am too practical to expect a miracle in my life. So please, I request you not to try to help me out. If you want to see me in peace, don’t give me any advice ever.
And about my belief, I think I have explained it: destiny is everything as per me, and there is no scope for free will there. But I also believe that nothing can be achieved without hard work, and a person will not be able to stop himself from working hard, if it is written in his destiny. Hard work, I don't believe, is done as per a person's own will but as per destiny's will.
astrosonu wrote:why surrender to pain yourself and fight to not come out of the pain..
By surrendering to pain, I am exhausting my past life karma.
astrosonu wrote:Infact, when Lord is sending good wishes and remedies by destiny to you, by free-will you deflected those
How are you so confident that Lord is trying to help me? How can you be so confident that destiny is not again teasing me, giving me hope so that I become hopeful, and then, give me disappointment?
When I had gone to one of the best homeopathic doctors in my city, he had told me that he would cure my problem in 6 months and had written in his prescription that he is giving a guarantee that he will cure me because he has cured many people with the same problem I had. I had thought then that God was trying to help me. And I with all sincerity took the medicines for 6 months, but I was not cured!! I took the medicine for another 2 months when he asked me to continue, and still, nothing happened. And then, he said that he didn't know why I was having the problem!!
I had pheimosis, and I had to go for surgery for it, and I was told by my GP that my problem was happening due to pheimosis that I had, and if I do surgery, I will become okay. I got the surgery done with a lot of hope, thanking God for helping the doctor identify the problem, and even though the surgery got done, the problem still continued. And the doctor said that he had guessed it could be the reason and was wrong!!
So how do I believe that what you are saying is going to help me, and it won't be the repeat of the last two times when I was given hope and bluffed by destiny!