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Depression progressively getting worse

Post by angel121 » 12 Oct 2019

Hello

So, I have been dealing with depression for as long as I can remember. It started many years before it was medically diagnosed. I've learnt to deal with it for the most part, but the past 3 years have been very bad and progressively gotten worse . I have been on a variety of prescription medication. I actually can't sleep without being heavily medicated. I have also consulted with ayuvedic practioners, Chinese medicine specialists, homeopaths etc. Nothing seems to help.

I'm at my wits end. This is now affecting my job and my functionality as a whole. I'm suicidal at times, but don't have the courage to take any action.

I try to over schedule my time so that I don't have time to be idle, but honestly getting out of bed and having to look presentable and interact with people is even mission for me.

My career has always been my highest priority and I've always been an overachiever in that aspect . These days I am barely productive. On more than one occasion, I've just driven past work and spent the day at the mall or just driving around the city aimlessly.

I was once considered a socialite, and now I don't want to go anywhere or see anyone or even get out of bed. I just emotionally eat and drug myself and sleep, if I can.

I seriously feel like I'm going crazy. It's not normal to behave like this and feel like this.

Of anyone could shed some insight and possible solutions , I'd be appreciative.

25th September 1989
12. 48pm noon
Durban, KwaZulu-Natal, South Africa



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Re: Depression progressively getting worse

Post by vedicmaths » 13 Oct 2019

hi angel121,

without going into the technical points too much, all i would say is that the period
running right now is good for recovery. If you think any kind of counseling would
sooth your mind, pl go for it. Talk to some real advisers who could guide you.
Astrologically the period running now supports this.

The trouble could have started sometime in the last leg of 2013.

truly yours,
vedicmaths

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Post by Venus75 » 16 Oct 2019

Not seen chart but meditation and chant of om namah shivay is key to fight depression...it mostly occurs due to afflicted moon or ketu ...

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Re: Depression progressively getting worse

Post by angel121 » 17 Oct 2019

Dear Vedicmath and Venus75

Thank you for your responses. Much appreciated. I will definitely try to incorporate your advice.

@vedicmath, I can't really pin point when it began. It's a shadow I've been haunted by my entire life since childhood. In 2013 I did have an ugly break up which did spiral into a low depressive phase but I seemed to have dug myself out of it. I have had other issues after that as well, but I feel as if since 2017 I've lost all control.

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Post by Dev » 17 Oct 2019

Listen to or chant Vishnu Sahasranamam everyday if possible early morning after bath, and night before sleep.

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Post by Shivshankar » 17 Oct 2019

8th lord Sun conjunction with Mercury and Mars. It will remain with you your whole life. Seek medical help and therapy.

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Post by Dev » 18 Oct 2019

You can chant Lakshmi Narasimha stotra for the mercury mars conjunction.

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Re: Depression progressively getting worse

Post by angel121 » 20 Oct 2019

Dear Dev & Shivshankar

Thank you for your advice. I will try to implement it.

Much appreciated.

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Post by Sishya » 20 Oct 2019

Hi,

Given depression has been stated as a known problem, I wonder why knowledgeable members are discounting or perhaps not focusing on the state of Moon and afflictions to it.

I took the liberty to cast the chart to validate my concern. And, my observations are...
1. Lagna is Capricorn and Chandra (Moon) in Swakshetra of Cancer.
2. Both Udaya Lagna and Chandra Lagna are afflicted by the nodes (Rahu and Ketu in 1-7 axis). The degree of separation could be minimizing the effect.
3. Moon in Ashlesha Nakshatra, lorded by Mercury. I'm learning association of Moon and Mercury in such charts might not be helpful.
4. Affliction to the 7th house and 7th lord in both Rasi and Navamsha charts might be affecting areas of partnership / relationship. This might not be helping improve the situation either.

Comments and weighted remedies to help the native are welcome.

Thanks...

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Post by angel121 » 21 Oct 2019

Dear Shishya

I don't understand the technical aspects, however, yes my many strained relationships (and broken) relationships have an influence on my current state I guess. I don't really have a support system either, sort of fighting this battle alone.

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Post by lefteye » 24 Jan 2020

Your birth time correction shifts the lagna to Sagittarius making 7th as badhaka. Your broken relationships are due to the mind set reflected by amsa rulers of D4.

Mostly the unhappy trends prevail due to bad combination of Tithi whatsoever be the planetary combinations. Venus is the ruler for all Tithis. Vedic weekday and Tithi makes a combination. Ekadasi on Monday is Dagdha and unfavourable. It is good for wars not for relationships.

Ketu-Moon brings in avalanche of miseries particularly in 8th house. Fortunately your Moon is in Ashlesha 1,the only pada doing good in that constellation of an otherwise totally karmic gandanta nakshatra invoking curses from Ahi.

Ekadasi is ruled by Mars.
In D4, Planets in Sanatkumaara amsa make the native unhappy.
Body Division Index In whose amsa in D-4

Lagna 4 4 Sanaatana
Sun 2 2 Sananda
Moon 3 3 Kumaara
Mars 2 2 Sananda
Mercury (R) 2 2 Sananda
Jupiter 3 3 Kumaara
Venus 3 3 Kumaara
Saturn 2 2 Sananda
Rahu 4 4 Sanaatana
Note the three major grahas Lord of lagna Venus and Moon are in Kumaara amsa.

The real continuity is from parents. We can look in D12.

Lagna 12 4 Ahi (Sarpa)
Sun 4 4 Ahi (Sarpa)
Moon 8 4 Ahi (Sarpa)
Mars 5 1 Ganesa
Mercury (R) 4 4 Ahi (Sarpa)
Jupiter 7 3 Yama
Venus 9 1 Ganesa
Saturn 6 2 Aswini Kumaras
Rahu 12 4 Ahi (Sarpa)
Ketu 12 4 Ahi (Sarpa)

Ahi amsa imparts poison to the planets falling in Ahi amsa.

Saturn-Mars combinations is highly dangerous. If they are mutually aspecting, from different bhavas, both bhavas get damaged. Here it is 1-10. Sun Mars combination is fiery. When this aspects 4th house, that bhava gets damaged.

Nodes perform poorly in 2-8 axis. They divert the native totally away from their family and their regular-normal duties to their families.

Mother side pending karmas are indicated as the source of troubles.
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Post by Nitin21 » 25 Jan 2020

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Post by angel121 » 02 Jul 2020

Hi All

It seems like some posts from this thread were deleted or disappeared.

Anyway, thought I would update this post to let those who assisted know that I am doing much better now. I still have lows, but not as badly as before. I have also stopped my medication for depression and anxiety. Hope this remains so.

Thanks again

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Post by angel121 » 20 Mar 2021

Hi All

I thought this had improved, but it's come back and worse. I don't know what to do anymore. I thought I hit my lowest before, but this low is worse and spiraling. I used to be a very groomed and posed person, probably slightly vain about it too. Now I don't even have the will to take care of myself. I cut off most my hair out of frustration the other day because I couldn't motivate myself to even wash it in weeks. I end up eating museli and yogurt for meals on end because I can't make myself cook. I've never missed a deadline in my life, now I am the time with my job and genuinely don't even care. I don't know what's wrong with me. I just feel lower and lower and lower everyday. I have no support system. Even my doctor with my medical history and files disappeared. I'm still on meds. I know it shouldn't, but I keep increasing them hoping I'll either feel better or never wake up again. I think I'm losing my sanity. I have absolutely nowhere to turn to about this. Can someone tell me when this is going to go away. I really cant live like this anymore. I want to be normal again.

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Post by Sishya » 21 Mar 2021

Hi,

Current Maha-Dasha is that of Venus/Shukra, the Atma-Karaka for the chart - even though a Yoga-Karaka, the period could still be trying, testing and tiresome. Incidentally, Dasha lord is powerfully placed in his Swasthana, in the 10th house of Tula Rashi and is posited in the Lunar Constellation of Vishaka Nakshatra, ruled by Jupiter/Guru... the 3rd and 12th lord (the issue has gotten worse perhaps 'cause he is also the Antara-Dasha lord) is not really a benefic for the chart - more so since he is placed in the 6th house of Roga-Sthana and in the Lunar Constellation of Ardra Nakshatra, ruled by Rahu.

Thereafter, I'm inclined to think planetary transits or gochara is contributing to the issue.

Please consider propitiating/appeasing associated planets/grahas, by way of offering special prayers to the respective deities, with unwavering faith, bhakti/devotion and a strong sankalpa.

Sincerely...

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